A Test For? Did U DOubt Me?
18/08/2004
Sad day started.... it was a morning.. i went off in a rush to prevent to be late while fetchin her... and i was early.. i laughed and went up to her hse and got her wit me.. and there we went off in bus 23 to interchange for some waffer? nice though... thinking seems to be doing all the talking between us... i didnt know wat will happen..
reached school.... nice day wit an acceptable weather... i was praying for a good mood day for her today and till we part in sch... she was stil feeling fine.... lessons and lessons.... time carried on and passed by.. tired was the word to describe... i didnt noe tt it wld be so tiring... but... it seems to be wit me everyday... ")
Aft sch... went to haf some western rice? and aft tt some drinks and some stupid auntie served wit stupid and shout stupidly at me... could not help to talked back and stare at her.. she jus suck... and we went back to class.. and my stomach was making some strange noise... tt made me stood at toilet for some time... it was unbearable... hating to return to class... but i stil did...
looking at the smiling mdm rubyiah.... i smiled adn returned to seat... tired and slept and woke up in a min... and the day carried on.. and i drew a 'art' for her.. and she was quite pleased with it... how nice.. she said tt i cld be a good drawer..... or an artist? thanks teacher...
Went down to study area.. and sat.. asked for some easier papers... which was quite easily understandable.... and i did quite a few.. though i didnt finish.... with her help... i got almost every question correct.. nice? thanks anyway....
did and did and did.. time passed and soon we packed... 'out or in'? sab said... definitely out.. i guess.. and sent her to bus stop... and before tt.. i didnt noe.. why she was jus so pissed off... i got into exclamation.... and i tried my best to overcome it... but my face stil let it out... troubles came... i got into thinking... waiting for her call when she reached home.. i called and called.. smsed and smsed... i felt something definitely so wrong.. tt is so accurate and the things jus happened... and after my meal.. i called her and she picked up... telling that she planned to lie to me... of no particular reason... i hate lying... i cldnt bear it to question.... cause the feeling jus sucked.. reaching home wit a stomach ache... venting anger on myself by doing push ups... i didnt know wat of my actions did not follow my words.... i was wordless.... speachless.. and in a dilemma....
sms her and asked.. so many sms.. bout wat and why did she lie for... m i such a good bullier? wat did i do wrong? and so ttt retribution striked and i didnt even do anithin wrong.. and she is tryin to find fault? was it tt i promised her not to play when we are studyin? i played wit mh... but... it was alright.... god damn.. it was jus a small prob... why find fault?
so pissed off.. trying to find someone to talk to... i had came to a situation.. i was talking to the air and myself when i was walking home.. silently and slowly... i talked to myself... 'was i such a pain? or was i a liar.? tt she had to test me? or did she had any doubt on me?' i tried to explain to myself... but i cant... asking her... she jus say it is so diff to say.. i didnt noe why.. but i jus need to know.. any thing but lie...
i didnt had any mood for the day... and now i m so tired... mentally... i tink... something is going to be put to an end... jus.. i cant bear it... its tiring and tey i didnt mind to endure.. but why must she put on more to me? i didnt noe... i was sad.. but... onli viewers off my blog noes..
I tried my best in givin all i can...
Healing myself after a little hurt...
Even a diety takes some time....
Why cant i even haf a little time....
To even heal my tiny wound u created...
And u did a larger one...
Did i didnt try my best.....
But i cldnt help it once....
Once in a While i dun mind...
But after the Promise....
It... Stil.... Came....
Shoutouts...
to viewers.. thanks for sharing my blog... i hope to be given some comment... ")
To zx.. i didnt noe i wld feel so down.. but when can u stop pushing me wit probs? i noe i do love u... but things kept coming from u... making me so vex and tired.... and dun even lie... again...
To BH... Hope truthfulness wil come.. beyond our combination... hope everything wil go fine.. and we stay together....
To SS... Stay together.. u can do it.. hope u all can come on sat...
Quote..: Do not lie to me... Cause i eat liars...
6 Comments:
The sole person who comments on ure blog...lolzx...okay larhxz...lets get serious...we all noe u are tired...and unhappie...so...juz follow ure heart...do wadeva u are happie...in my opinion...u are happie with her...but unhappie with her attitude...so the onli way is u love her like u alwaes do...and try to ignore her attitude...tis is another way of tolerance too...juz dun give up so easily...!!!
By
peabrain, at August 19, 2004 at 10:03 AM
Xing tai luan Xing tai luan... come on bro... is a two way road... is either u go front or go back... think carefully... got consiquenses de... well.. i feel funny nowadays beside u... dunnno why also... hahahaha..
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jasonang, at August 19, 2004 at 10:58 AM
yo man bro... sup... no need to worry la.. i wil find my way.. ya.. btw.. wat funny feeling.. must tell me.. remember.. all the BHs... talk out all wats on your mind.. communicate and all problems will be solved ok...
By
eThaN-, at August 19, 2004 at 3:07 PM
yo man bro... sup... no need to worry la.. i wil find my way.. ya.. btw.. wat funny feeling.. must tell me.. remember.. all the BHs... talk out all wats on your mind.. communicate and all problems will be solved ok...
By
eThaN-, at August 19, 2004 at 3:08 PM
yo man bro... sup... no need to worry la.. i wil find my way.. ya.. btw.. wat funny feeling.. must tell me.. remember.. all the BHs... talk out all wats on your mind.. communicate and all problems will be solved ok...
By
eThaN-, at August 19, 2004 at 3:08 PM
yo man bro... sup... no need to worry la.. i wil find my way.. ya.. btw.. wat funny feeling.. must tell me.. remember.. all the BHs... talk out all wats on your mind.. communicate and all problems will be solved ok...
By
eThaN-, at August 19, 2004 at 3:12 PM
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